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It's been a year since we broke up. Since you broke us up. How you're doing?
Don't ask the same question to me, because I'm still missing you.
But lately, I become sick of these feelings and I feel like I want to erase you from my memory. Have you ever watched a movie "Eternal Sunshine of A Spotless Mind"? In that movie, the girl erased her ex-boyfriend from her memory. And that's exactly what I wish I could do.
Just so I don't have to be tortured by these feelings, and I can just move on without even remember that I ever know you once.

I still remember every single words you said. I still remember every promised you make.
and those are lies. Just like Rihanna's song. "The award of THE BEST LIAR goes to you for making me believe that you could be faithful to me. How 'bout around of applause? Standing ovation?"

I do, love you. But also, I really want to hate you.
Some says "if a girl is stupid enough to love you after you broke her heart, I guarantee you, she is the one." Haha. Is it mean that I'm the one for you? But how about you? Are you the one for me?
Well, if I am the one for you, I hope you realize it soon enough, before it's too late..
I might still the same girl, who loves you anyway and don't want to lose you..
Yeah, I love you, Nick..
so very very love you 

The Disney Princess In Me

Well, there it is..

I deeply fell in love with you, an adventurous guy, when I was 16, just like Ariel fell in love with Eric, even how much my parents don't like you..
and guess what? I was like Jasmine, who doesn't care if you're not a wealthy prince, because I love you.
And I don't even care if you're not that handsome, because I love the inside of you, I love you for who you are, just like Belle loves Beast.
You always wake me up with your kiss, as if I'm Snow White
and you can make me secure by wash away all of my nightmares,and when I wake up, I see you're smiling to me, just like Prince Phillip did to Aurora
You saved me from my dull days and that scary house I lived in, makes me feel like I was Cinderella saved by the prince
And I did, followed my heart, like Mulan, and I found you..

But, still, I'm not a princess, and I don't wanna be, except you're the one who's gonna be my prince

but something that I wish that can happen to us as it can happen to them is just one thing: live together happily ever after

Guess we're not gonna have this on our anniversary

Or "should be" anniversary,
cuz' we're not together anymore now..
still I wish you were here..
Love you Nick

19.11.12

*based on this post

I LOVE YOU

Long-distanced. Stupid fights. Long call hours. Thousand texts. Love songs. Bad-signaled calls. Sweet times. Hopes. Ignorance. Promises. Dreams. Disappointment. Forgiveness. Fried rice & chicken noodle dates. Kisses. Fear of losing. Love is too colorful.

First Date with Nick ♥

Yesterday, after our 1st meeting (finally :3) which I can't say it's a date, because we just went to your friend's house and with your little brother, I took the concert ticket for today. It's Maliq n d'essentials' concert at JEC.
And today is also my report card day! Woohoo! -_-
You picked me up from the school, but then I went to a friend's sweet 17 party (HBD Ardine Nakety! :D) at Sheraton before we went to the concert.
And along the concert, which we missed the main performance because suddenly I got dizzy and feel like about to faint, you have your arms around my waist, and that's so comforting :)
I actually kinda nervous and I had that fast-heatbeats thing when I'm with you. But that's good.. I mean, after all, I feel so comfortable :)
Thank's.. :)
I love you so much, Nick ♥ :*
I'm sorry if I screwed up our first date. I mean, we should be watch the concert, but because of me, we got home earlier..

anyway, the times when I hug you on the bike.. it's so warm and I feel like I don't want to let it go..
I don't know.. you're just so precious to me :)

Love you so much, Nick..
don't go, okay?

A Song About You :3

I Knew I Loved You - By Savage Garden

Maybe it's intuition 

But some things you just don't question

Like in your eyes

I see my future in an instant

and there it goes

I think I've found my best friend

I know that it might sound more than

a little crazy but I believe 

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life 

There's just no rhyme or reason

only this sense of completion

and in your eyes

I see the missing pieces

I'm searching for

I think I found my way home

I know that it might sound more than

a little crazy but I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life 

A thousand angels dance around you

I am complete now that I found you

I knew I loved you before I met you

I think I dreamed you into life

I knew I loved you before I met you

I have been waiting all my life 

aku emang belum pernah ketemu sama kamu, tapi aku beneran sayang banget sama kamu. Kamu bikin aku ngerasa nyaman dan aku gak mau kehilangan kamu :)

Love you so much, Nick :*